When I first met you I was a little scared, doubting myself, hating my inner voice
What if I failed to keep up?
When the going gets rough, would I be in doubt,
give up without a second thought,
Or be brave and tough it out?
The more and more time I spent in your company,
I realized how blessed I was as opposed to so many,
To have been blessed with such an opportunity ,
Was nothing short of a miracle.
I wouldn’t have taken you for granted,
If I knew how astray I was.
Instead I chose to hold on to denial.
Too confident I wouldn’t screw up with you by my side,
Then I left you behind just like that.
Seriously, how could I?
It was naïve of me to think I’d be evil-free
I had forgotten the evil within me
Until it overpowered me, body, mind and soul
Lost in my own ignorance,
Wandering the streets of misguidance.
It wasn’t long until I realized,
What I had compromised.
Defeated and weak,
Brought to my knees,
Drowning in my sins,
Just as I was about to give in,
I saw you right in front of me.
Saw how truly beautiful you were,
A ray of hope, a fresh start,
A wonderful blessing from my Lord.
So pleasant like the early morning breeze,
The sight of you filling me with strength and peace.
I was so relieved.
My breathing must have ceased.
Because that very second, it felt like pure bliss.
Now as I sit here in peace
Although my heartbeat’s picking up speed,
Thinking of all my evil deeds,
I’m not gonna accept defeat
Gonna pray for my eeman to only increase
And follow in the Prophet’s (ﷺ) footsteps
When the first verse was revealed
And he was commanded to “Read”.
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‘Abd-Allaah ibn ‘Amr reported that the Prophet (ﷺ) said: “It will be said to the companion of the Qur’aan: Recite and rise in status, recite as you used to recite in the world, for your status will be at the last verse that you recite.”
– Al-Tirmidhi (2914) and Abu Dawood (1464)
– This hadeeth was classed as saheeh by al-Albaani in al-Silsilah al-Saheehah, 5/218, no. 2240,
– Note that what is meant by the “companion of the Qur’aan” is the one who memorizes it by heart.
Insha’Allah I’ll do a separate post on the virtues of reciting and memorizing the Qur’an.
All feedback is welcome.
Remember me in your duas. ❤