What’s Next, Nafsi?

You reek of sin,
a bloody stench capable of
making one nauseous;
sometimes, even me,
but its effect doesn’t last long
as I’m always quick to forget,
having learned to skillfully
mask it by the impalpable perfume
of your unfair justifications,
in the vain hope that it will
not just cover up but eliminate
the deep guilt I feel inside;
but, it only intoxicates you further.
I can see evil obvious in my eyes
that shine brightly
in your growing darkness.
The superficial look of innocence
on my face is in sinister contrast
to your undisguised ugly thoughts.
I am aware of the grotesque reality
of your transgressions
that weigh heavily on my chest,
forming dark spots on my heart.
Every sin like a cut on my wrist,
Slicing through my skin,
deep enough to peirce you.
It shakes us from within,
messes up our system,
But we smile through the pain,
Like we ain’t feelin nothin.
Shame is the medicine
we traded in for sin, our drug.
I wonder what’s next..
What’s next, nafsi?

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Nafs is the Arabic word for soul, nafsi translates to “my soul”.


3 thoughts on “What’s Next, Nafsi?

    1. Haha you must be kidding! πŸ˜„
      I feel flattered by your suggestion though, πŸ˜‰ Jazak Allahu khairan for your kind words and encouragement as always. 😘❀❀

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  1. Salaam! Wow amazing words – but then again you’ve always had a knack for writing really well haven’t you?
    Although I don’t really blog anymore I was going through old comments and I came across a comment from you that I never even saw – I felt so bad! I don’t know why I never got the notification for it – considering you and tam had a whole conversation right there in the comments! There were all these other comments I didn’t get a notification for either and I felt so bad that I could never reply because I didn’t even know they were there!
    I hope you’re doing great, and everything is fine πŸ™‚ I just couldn’t believe I had missed your comments of all people I had to come here although this was ages ago and you probably don’t even remember haha!


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