All my life
I’ve played hide-and-seek
Every moment, every day
Trying to be someone I’m not
Never knowing what I wanted
Never knowing who I really was.
I never truly found myself.
To this day.
If I get a chance to play again
I will change the game forever
This I promise
It wouldn’t be hide-and-seek anymore
I’d rather play chase
And bring ’em all down
Those things responsible for my weakness
Self doubt, distrust and lack of confidence
Till I overcome all hurdles
I will never stop playing
If only I get a chance to play again
I’m sure every one of us has played hide-and-seek when we were kids. Remember the excitement of finding the best hiding places, the happiness of being safe, on not being the first one to be found? The brief moment when we’re “hiding” we get a kind of satisfaction; we feel pleased with ourselves. Obviously because we are winning at the game as long as we’re “hidden”.
But if we look at our lives, we’re doing exactly the same thing and surprisingly enough we seem to be pleased with hiding our true selves from the world. I wonder if we are even hiding from ourselves. When we try to fit in with the outside world we easily ignore the discomfort we feel inside, but the more we ponder on our lives the more aware we become of the internal conflict we face every single day.
Why can’t we be ourselves?
What are we afraid of?
No matter what we do, how we do it, when we do it there will be people who will judge. But we should remember one thing that regardless of what people say our actions are for ourselves. Their criticisms should not bring us down, nor should we change ourselves just because they think we’re wrong. As long as we’re doing what is right and are on the Straight path we should not fear the criticisms of people.
It is delusional to think that by hiding ourselves from people we will be good in their eyes. Who we are is our identity. We should not let people dictate our lives.
The way you think, the way you look, the way you talk, is who you are. Don’t try to change for people, you don’t need to be a people pleaser to survive in this world. What you need is to please Allah. We all are in desperate need of Allah’s Approval, His Pleasure. There is nothing in this world that compares to the extreme importance and the urgent necessity of worshipping Allah to the best of our ability. There is no happiness more real and genuine than what is attained through sincere worship.
Don’t let people’s opinions make you doubt your abilities. Don’t let anything get you down. Learn to trust yourself and never ever give up trying. Remember you’re still in the game, the only difference is that you gotta make your own rules.
P.S I know it’s been so long since I’ve posted something really worth reading that I’m beginning to wonder just what has happened to my writing. Wait, what? Did you just say this was good? Whoa. I thought I must have heard you wrong. Are you sure? 😄 Haha seriously though do let me know what you think.
Oh and I remember being tagged for a challenge and an award. Is it too late to do them now? I mean it was like a month ago, but I don’t think that would be a problem? So yeah I’ll try doing them soon insha’Allah, not making any promises. 😋
Do remember me in your duas! 💗