What’s Next, Nafsi?


You reek of sin,
a bloody stench capable of
making one nauseous;
sometimes, even me,
but its effect doesn’t last long
as I’m always quick to forget,
having learned to skillfully
mask it by the impalpable perfume
of your unfair justifications,
in the vain hope that it will
not just cover up but eliminate
the deep guilt I feel inside;
but, it only intoxicates you further.
I can see evil obvious in my eyes
that shine brightly
in your growing darkness.
The superficial look of innocence
on my face is in sinister contrast
to your undisguised ugly thoughts.
I am aware of the grotesque reality
of your transgressions
that weigh heavily on my chest,
forming dark spots on my heart.
Every sin like a cut on my wrist,
Slicing through my skin,
deep enough to peirce you.
It shakes us from within,
messes up our system,
But we smile through the pain,
Like we ain’t feelin nothin.
Shame is the medicine
we traded in for sin, our drug.
I wonder what’s next..
What’s next, nafsi?

* * *

Nafs is the Arabic word for soul, nafsi translates to “my soul”.

Temptation


A burning desire,
in the spur of the moment.
alluring, enticing,
holding you down like gravity.

Engulfing you like quicksand.

A persistent thought
in the back of your mind,
urging you to cross the line,
break rules, disobey, rebel.

Draining you completely.

A decision taken in haste,
thoughtless, haphazard,
ignorant, careless.

Leading you astray.

Leaving you
feeling betrayed,
depraved, and lost in sin.

* * *

“And the life of this world is nothing but play and amusement. But far better is the house in the Hereafter for those who are Al-Muttaqun (the pious). Will you not then understand?”

(Surah Al-An’aam 6:32)

Wronged


It was just his face
she remembers looking at
not his clothes or shoes
or even how tall he was, the obvious,
she didn’t pay attention to the obvious,
but how could she?
it was just his face, the smirk
that played on his lips
before transforming into
a full evil grin,
baring all his teeth,
his mouth seemed to be moving
but she couldn’t understand
what he was “saying”
but how could she?

Her mind couldn’t think beyond
the way he looked at her,
but then again,
he didn’t just look at her
it wasn’t “just a look”
it could never have been “just a look”.

His eyes, those demonic eyes
travelled up and down her body
making her flinch inwardly,
making her want to shirk to invisibility,
her thoughts shifting in an instant
“is something wrong with my clothes?
there must be something wrong with…”

frantically trying to adjust them,
fix them, only to realize
there was nothing wrong with her
clothing in the first place.
“I should ignore him”
keeping her eyes down,
in vain attempts to distract her mind,
but his obscenities did not fail
to make their way to her ears
snatching away her smile,
making her feel dirty inside out.
“I should tell someone about it.
but what will I tell them?
they’ll think I’m crazy,
sick, petty, weak
for being uncomfortable
by someone’s mere presence.”

It did make her sick,
destroying her confidence,
slicing her into a million pieces.
reducing her to silence.

Guilt ate away at her,
as he continued staring,
passing offensive remarks,
making vulgar gestures
and she kept blaming herself,
not realizing that she was the one
being wronged.

* * *

To some people this may seem blown out of proportion but regardless of how trivial anyone might think it to be, I’m not going to beat around the bush about it or be ashamed or apologetic for bringing it up.

Catcalling, street harrassment, or any kind of unsolicited verbal or physical advances of a sexual nature are an offense.

And being on the receiving end of such reprehensible behavior is no joke. I can’t even express how much it gets on my nerves. Don’t get me wrong, I’m way past the point of being upset or scared of derogatory remarks and stares of men who have NO sense of respect for women. I have realized that such unwanted attention comes with the territory of being a woman. I have learned to just ignore them. I don’t fear for myself.

But I fear for every little, innocent girl unaware that there exist people who will make her feel uncomfortable, embarrassed and unsafe. She will be made to feel unsafe to go anywhere unaccompanied. They will make her question the choices she makes in life, from the way she dresses to the way she speaks in public. They will be the reason she’ll have trust issues for the rest of her life. The reason she’ll second guess herself, the reason she’ll always feel scared and helpless around men…

It’s just sad. And disgusting.

Let me say loud and clear that this isn’t just about unwanted remarks shouted at women by men in passing cars or being whistled or stared at. Street harrassment goes far deeper than that. And it can happen to anyone regardless of age. And that’s something I find unsettling. While women who have reached their twenties can handle these things well, young girls are usually uninformed and unequipped when faced with such circumstances, which can leave strong imprints on their minds, and continue affecting their lives negatively. The experience can be almost traumatic.

Although there isn’t much that can be done to stop those who do such things from doing them, BUT we have to realize that our safety is our own responsibility. And, the first step in solving any problem is recognizing that there is one. We need to stop pretending that catcalling or street harassment isn’t a problem. We might not be able to give condescending retorts to the men who try to harass us or throw punches at them but we CAN show them that we’re not affected by their behavior in the slightest by simply ignoring them. But if need be, we shouldn’t hesitate to report them to the police.

Also, here are a few pointers to keep in mind:

1. Make sure you are properly covered. Even if you’re walking to the grocery store that’s just one block away from your house. Women talk all the time about how it shouldn’t matter what clothes we wear, we deserve respect regardless and stuff. But here’s the thing, a woman in skimpy clothing is going to appear more attractive than the one wearing loose clothes. I’m not saying that fully covered women do not get catcalled, but the chances of that happening are greatly reduced.

“O Prophet! Tell your wives and your daughters and the women of the believers to draw their Jalabib over their bodies. That will be better that they should be known so as not to be annoyed. And Allah is Ever Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful.)” (Surah Al-Ahzab 33:59)

There is no doubt that the woman who observes hijab completely (properly covers herself) and has the characteristics of chastity and modesty will protect herself and her honor. Also, Allah سبحانه و تعالى has promised to the women who observe complete hijab and protect their honour from haram (unlawful) things, forgiveness and a great reward .

2. Educate your children on the dangers of the outside world. I don’t think it’s wise to hide these things from kids in today’s world. It’s not safe anymore. Tell them about the “bad guys” and the ways they might try to harm them. Always make them feel comfortable to open up to you whatever it’s about and whenever they want to. If possible try to accompany them wherever they want to go. Don’t send them alone to the grocery, parks or playgrounds….I don’t know a thing about parenting so I may not be qualified to give advice on this matter but all I’m trying to say is that keep your children safe.

3. Express yourself. There’s no real point in bottling up your feelings and silently suffering. If you are a victim of abuse please know that you have every right to be heard. It wasnt your fault and nobody’s gonna judge you.

* * *

Remember me in your duas!

Words Don’t Flow


It’s been so very long since I wrote a song,
I was young and naïve, an apprentice to life
had a lot to figure out,
but through all the confusion,
through the ups and downs
I didn’t accept defeat, didn’t retreat
But now my words are stuck on repeat
I can’t find the rhythm to my beat
It seems I keep hitting all the wrong notes
every time I try it somehow feels incomplete
even when I know it’s right up my street
I just don’t feel up to it.

Words don’t flow
Oh the words just don’t flow from my heart anymore

My thoughts are a tangled mess,
I’m confused I confess.,
lost in an imaginary space in my head
The night sky is illuminated by city lights
I see people moving around
I hear sounds in the background
But nothing’s clear despite how bright and loud it is
my mind’s racing , trying to think
of ways to relate to this world
this life, the struggle, the strife
the when’s, what’s and why’s…

Words don’t flow
Oh the words just don’t flow from my heart anymore

I know this feeling all too well
And I know this is the journey,
the journey I got to make
yet I don’t know which path to take…
I’ve had enough confusion, enough lies,
enough putting-on-the-tough girl-act
ain’t gonna let it get to me no more,
Time to get out of it and be sure,
of myself and everything I stand for.

I’ll figure out a way to make the words flow
Just the way they used to.
Words will flow
Oh the words will flow from my heart
like they used to.

* * *

Disclaimer : This is not how I’m feeling right now. In fact this isn’t me. At all. Yes I do have my weak moments and sometimes even pity parties (wait did I just say that out loud? 🙊 pretend you didn’t hear me) but I’m not usually one for expressing my feelings and then somehow magically feeling good about stuff. Because honestly venting my frustrations only makes me more anxious. That actually puts me in a pretty good position because then I’m compelled to figure things out myself and deal with and get over crappy situations on my own without feeling the need to involve another person and further add to the anxiety.. Alhumdulillah. 🙂

Anyway so it’s been almost a month since my last post. It’s such a shame, I know. I had thought of writing a blog on comparative religion but couldn’t get around to it due to stuff. But you wouldn’t believe how many unfinished poems I have in my drafts! And guess what? I’m going to try to complete all of them and post them here before Ramadan insha’Allah!

May Allah سبحانه و تعالى grant us the ability and guide us to do maximum ibadah solely seeking His Pleasure in the blessed month of Ramadan and throughout the year. Ameen.

Remember me in your duas! ❤

Inner Peace


Listening to the relaxing
sounds of nature
walking on a long,
lonely road.

Uncertain where it leads to,
yet,
trying to find myself.
the journey finally
feeling good.

Used to hate
the silence,
the confusion,
the wrong turns.
but now I know there is a reason
for everything.

Things aren’t always perfect,
at some points in life
we might regret
the choices we made,
become disappointed in ourselves
when something doesn’t go our way,
get frustrated,
and feel lost
but,
this is what the journey of life
is all about.

It’s ok to lose focus sometimes,
but having a sense of direction,
of meaning, and purpose

in life
is most important,
and knowing what you want,
doing things for yourself,
self love is something we all
need.

* * *

The problem with us human beings is that as we grow older we tend to think that we can handle anything that may come our way. Because we’ve done it before so why not again? We’ve seen it all, done it all, lost sleep over it, tackled it first thing in the morning, every morning, for God knows how long, till we were able to conquer it all. These “victories” lead us into having an unrealistic and overly high opinion of ourselves. As a result we are not prepared for things that can actually throw us off balance.

And when something does throw us off balance, challenging us to stay calm and maintain our inner peace, we lose it. Up goes in smoke all the effort we put into being at peace with our lives. We end up doing something so stupid, so bad, so ugly that it leaves a permanent mark on our memories. Don’t even get me started on regret.

Mistakes, screw-ups, failure are a part of life. Never forget this. Get over it.

One of the important lessons I’ve learned in life is to not be hard on myself. Often times we get so tired and disappointed of not being able to measure up to our own expectations that we become our own worst critics. Belittling our capabilities, criticizing our choices and decisions, beating ourselves up over little things is not going to help. Rather, what’s essential is to get to the root of the problem. Because once we manage to figure out what’s wrong, we will be able to effectively tackle the problem because that’s what heroes do right? 😎

But what has problem solving got to do with inner peace?

The short answer is: everything.

Although at the surface level the two may appear to be opposing ideas, since problem solving involves confronting the problem head on and therefore may be perceived as something that is stressful and disruptive to peace; it is important to realize that it is only through problem solving that one can attain inner peace. I mean, come on, there’s a problem, we can’t just sit there and expect it to go away on its own, can we? Let’s be realistic, it doesn’t work like that.

We don’t really have to look through library shelves for books after books that give us sophisticated ideas to deal with problems in sophisticated ways though. Because Islam simplifies it for us.

Allah عزّ و جل Says in the Noble Quran,

“The believers are only those who, when Allah is mentioned, their hearts become fearful, and when His verses are recited to them, it increases them in faith; and upon their Lord they rely”
(Surah Al-Anfal 8:2)

 

Key phrase: “upon their Lord they rely”

What the West calls “optimism” is from an Islamic perspective complete and unwavering trust in Allah.

Putting one’s complete trust in Allah involves two things: 1) relying on Allah and believing that whatever He wills, occurs and that whatever He does not Will does not occur; and 2) taking appropriate measures.

The Prophet ﷺ is reported to have said in a hadith:

Strive to seek that which will benefit you and do not feel helpless. If something overwhelms you, then say: Qaddarallah, wa ma sha’a fa’al (It is the decree of Allah and what He wills He does). And beware of (saying) ‘If only,’ for ‘If only opens the door to Satan.”
(Sunan Ibn Majah Vol. 5, Book 37, Hadith 4168)

Taking appropriate measures and doing things that will help us reach our goals or solve our problems is part of putting our trust in Allah. Also seeking Divine Guidance by means of Salatul Istikhara, a highly recommended Sunnah, will help make things easier by the Will of Allah.

* * *

P.S This post was written in haste so please forgive any error I may have made. I was supposed to complete this earlier today but I put it off till the end as always. Hopefully next time I’ll prepare well before time which reminds me that I’ve already decided on my next topic. 😊 Alhumdulillah. But I’m taking suggestions anyway. I’d love to know your opinions on what I should write on insha’Allah!

Remember me in your duas ❤

Looks peaceful for some reason. Something about nature maybe? This picture was taken from a moving car on a highway. Still so good right? Haha. 😏 Kidding.

The Stranger


She had a smile that could melt
the hardest of hearts,
and a heart that knew no hatred, no discrimination,
or what it was like to be cold and distant,
instead acceptance and friendship was what she stood for.

But she was nothing like them,

she didn’t own any shorts or crop-tops
or skinny-jeans
didn’t listen to music or follow celebrity gossip,
she didn’t talk to boys regardless
of what they thought of her
regardless of what anyone thought
she believed people’s opinions were just that: opinions
and irrelevant when it came to her faith
and pleasing her Lord
a lil friendship wouldn’t hurt though she thought.

It was her love of people,
of the stories they carried in their hearts,
their unique philosophies of life,
their thoughts, their beliefs
and the overall fascinating strangeness surrounding them
that intrigued her and somehow
made her feel connected.
as if she was one of them.

But she was nothing like them.

The girl on the football team
strong and beautiful
the girl who’s voice was a nightingale’s,
the girl who looked like a model straight
out of Vogue, glamorous and confident
the poetess, her words the sweetest candy
the ballet girl, the cheerleader,
the quiet, the loud, the blonde, the brunette
and every other girl she met,
she wanted to be friends with them all
she just didn’t know otherwise,
couldn’t think otherwise,
but they seemed to think otherwise
she was told to go away
she was the piece that didn’t fit
an outcast, an outsider,
just a stranger.

She was nothing like them.

Except if she tried to fit in
they’d think about letting her in
was what they made clear from the very beginning,
They were too confident, too proud
of having set standards too high,
anticipated witnessing her struggle
to reach them,
do things to please them,
But they couldn’t have been more wrong.

Her luminous eyes that once held friendly warmth,
mirrored the hurt that she felt inside
mixed with disappointment, and sadness
that she had not known before.
but also a strange kind of hope,
hope that seemed too unreal,
too impossible,
but strangely strong and undying,
She refused to give in.

cause she was nothing like them.
a stranger,
she was of the ghurabaa.

***

As Salamualaikum wa rahmatullaahi wa barakaatuhu everyone!

I know I know it’s been a really long time… but can we just skip all the formalities and get straight to the important stuff? Because that’s just so much more convenient than having to give any sort of explanation for anything…which is just going to be awkward anyway.  I’m not taking no for an answer.

So I cut this poem short, hence the abrupt ending. I cut it short because I’m going to explain it in a bit more in detail here…

I’m not sure how many of you could relate to this poem, but the primary reason I chose to write about this issue was that I was thinking about how children, especially teenagers (sometimes even adults, but that’s a different story altogether) feel pressured to “fit in” with a certain crowd. When I think back to my days at school, I was no different, I remember having to struggle to just find my place. Not because I was some kind of a sociopath or loner, quite the opposite actually. I could strike up a conversation with just anyone and not end up embarrassing myself in the process, as a matter of fact, but that was up until I wasn’t aware of my religious values, didn’t know right from wrong, or the directions to my house (I still get them mixed up, just kidding).

If there was one thing I could tell my thirteen-year-old self it would be this: just be you. Screw people, screw standards and screw popularity. It’s really disturbing to see kids (I mean teenagers but I’m still going to refer to them as kids, I’m annoying like that deal with it 😄) trying so hard to prove themselves. I’m not saying that’s wrong, if you want to prove yourself go ahead, show the world what you’re capable of, there is no age limit for that, but what I’m saying is direct the energy and determination on the right things. Especially as Muslims it is important to realize that there can be nothing and I mean nothing more beautiful or appealing than the religion of Islam, our values and our obligations. You need to understand that there is so much more to life than “fitting in” with the “cool kids”. I mean, really?

As cliché as it sounds, it’s the responsibility of parents to inculcate religious values in their children from a young age. They need to be educated about right and wrong, sin and temptation and about the virtues of having good character and doing the right thing. At all times. No matter what.

It was narrated from Abu Hurairah that the Messenger of Allah (ﷺ) said:

“Islam began as something strange and will go back to being strange,

    so glad tidings to the strangers

.

(Sunan Ibn Majah Book 36, Hadith 61)

“It was said: ‘Who are they, O Messenger of Allaah?’ He said: ‘

    Those who rectify (themselves/others) when the people have become corrupt.’

(Jami’ at-Tirmidhi Book 40, Hadith 25)

There’s a lot more to be said on this topic, but we’ll save that for another day.

May Allah سبحانه و تعالى keep us steadfast on the Deen and make the path of righteousness easy for us. Ameen.

Remember me in your duas. ❤

Self-deception


Not the kind of fantasy in a child’s head
Of fairies, unicorns and magic spells
Knowing well that it’s a lie
Just imagination allowed to run wild
Temporary happiness, a moment of ecstasy
The child doesn’t live in fantasy.

But what happens when you try to live a lie
Ignoring the fact that it is one,
Reveling in its fake yet soothing existence?
Mistaking it’s transience for the so-called forever
Believing that it’s never gonna end

Adding color after color to the false picture you’re painting
Till it’s finished and is just how you imagined it
But then it all starts to fade away
Disappearing into thin air
That’s when you realize it was just in your head

Upset that you knowingly played yourself
Signs that you chose to ignore
Things that you desperately held on to
Despite knowing they were untrue,
Kept denying what you knew.

Now lost in confusion
The thoughts in your mind messed up
Your feelings with no place to stay
As your heart ceases to care.

Staying Positive


I see in front of me
A vulnerable girl
Afraid of letting people into her life
Putting her guard down
Questions clouding her mind,
Answers she desperately seeks
Her eyes a pool of confusion
Tears unsure of their existence and purpose
She feels nothing, absolutely nothing,
Yet they flow.

Living, trying to survive
In a world infected with hypocrisy and hatred
That destroyed her innocence and virtue
Ripped away love and hope from her heart.
She puts on a facade
Walling in her sensitivity with bricks of cynicism
Concealing her positivity with a veil of skepticism
Refusing to acknowledge her fears

She wants to let go
Wants to be able to trust again
Without the constant fear of being let down
But she doesn’t know, she’s unsure

She closes her eyes, takes a deep breath, counts till ten
And that’s all it takes to change into the person
She’s getting used to being
Cold, cynical, unfeeling.

***

Assalamualaikum wa rahmatullaahi wa barakaatuhu!

It’s been a reaaaally long time and I know that normally I would apologize for my absence, explain why I went MIA, make promises to be consistent blah blah blah… but guess what? This time I’m not gonna do any of that. The reason behind that is very simple. Or maybe it’s a lil complicated. I mean it’s pretty clear in my head but it might seem somewhat complicated to your minds cause that’s what usually happens right? At least that’s how it is with me. Like all the time. But hopefully things will change someday insha’Allah…buuut anywayyy why am I even talking about that? Let’s focus on today’s post.

Ok. So I wrote this poem sometime ago…and as you can see it’s very gloomy, sad and depressing, crushing all hope, or possibility of there being any hope. Your guess might be that I wrote it to vent out my frustrations or whatever. And maybe that’s correct to a certain extent. But not entirely correct. To tell you the truth I really don’t know why I wrote this, and what was going through my mind when I wrote it.

The thing is, I feel that lately almost everything that I’m writing is leaning more towards negativity (I don’t mean for the blog, just what I write usually)…And I absolutely hate it. I want to write something uplifting, something that would make me or anyone who reads it smile or make them feel better and give them hope. I mean life is so short. I really think it’s pointless to dwell on sad and negative thoughts. I mean, seriously, what’s the point? I know it helps vent feelings, make sense of situations and understand ourselves better and stuff. But I’m sure that CAN also be done without being negative or having a negative outlook. Right?

Sometimes it’s good to be completely honest with yourself. And not give yourself false hopes or anything. I totally agree with that. But that does not necessarily mean that you must substitute negativity for positivity, or pessimism for optimism, or hate for love, or cynicism for trust.

Never let go of hope. That’s the bottom line. No matter how broken you are, or having a hard time, struggling to just be happy or get what you want in life… Just remember that nothing great ever came that easy (it’s a quote I read somewhere). So stay positive! 😊✌


~ إِنَّ اللَّهَ مَعَ الصَّابِرِينَ ~

“…Indeed, Allah is with the patient.”
(Surah Al Baqarah 2:153)

Remember me in your duas. ❤

Dhikr


I remember making a certain dua a lot when I was small, the dua was

“O Allah, keep my tongue moist with your remembrance”

I probably learned it from my mum. I don’t know the wordings of it in Arabic cause I would always read it in English. And I also don’t know if the dua is from the sunnah or not (I will look it up at the end of this post insha’Allah)

But what reminded me of the dua was an amazing realization that struck me yesterday. And because I don’t keep a journal (cause at times I don’t understand my own handwriting) I thought I’d write it down here. I’m just going to pour out my thoughts, unfiltered, so be kind enough to excuse any grammatical errors (I’ll take care of the typos, I mean, auto correct will).

So back to the topic, I don’t know how many of you are aware of Hindu festivals, I wouldn’t be surprised if none of you are. But anyway, in the past two weeks they had a festival, I’ll skip the details cause it doesn’t concern us..As a part of their celebrations they set up huge, and I mean HUGE music systems at a distance of every 200 meters which they used for playing their religious songs/hymns from morning till night. I really don’t know how to explain how it felt having no choice but to listen to it all day, literally everywhere I went because they were all over the city.

It’s a blessing that I don’t understand the language the hymns were in, so it was kinda easier to ignore them but when you listen to something over and over it ends up getting stuck in your head which is very frustrating. So yesterday in the evening when I was home busy doing something I could hear it, inwardly cursing the fact that it was a lot louder at the time since it was the last day of their festival. But here’s the best part!…It suddenly struck me that perhaps doing some dhikr would help block out the sounds. So I did that. And Subhan’Allah it not only helped distract my mind but it also made me realize the importance of doing dhikr and how wonderful it feels!! I also realized how easily we tend to forget to do dhikr.

Most of us are aware of the many verses in the Quran that talk about the significance of rembering Allah Ta’aala:

يَا أَيُّهَا الَّذِينَ آمَنُوا اذْكُرُوا اللَّهَ ذِكْرًا كَثِيرًا

“O you who believe! Remember Allah with much remembrance.” (33:41)

الَّذِينَ آمَنُوا وَتَطْمَئِنُّ قُلُوبُهُمْ بِذِكْرِ اللَّهِ ۗ أَلَا بِذِكْرِ اللَّهِ تَطْمَئِنُّ الْقُلُوبُ

Those who believe (in the Oneness of Allah – Islamic Monotheism), and whose hearts find rest in the remembrance of Allah, Verily, in the remembrance of Allah do hearts find rest. (13:28)

Worship for us has become something monotonous done as a part of our daily routine. It’s been reduced to praying five times a day (it’s very sad that sometimes we don’t even pray on time or skip prayers due to work or other stuff). We get so caught up in wordly activities, in living our present life that we easily forget the afterlife. It’s not even there in the back of our minds. Instead our minds are literally filled with thoughts about trivial things like what dress to wear to school or work or trying to come up with new ideas to spend the weekend, places to visit and stuff like that. I hate to admit it but Satan’s doing an amazing job at distracting us from our real purpose in life. 😔

Remember what’s been mentioned in the Quran about Satan’s resolve to tempt mankind?

قَالَ رَبِّ بِمَا أَغْوَيْتَنِي لَأُزَيِّنَنَّ لَهُمْ فِي الْأَرْضِ وَلَأُغْوِيَنَّهُمْ أَجْمَعِينَ

[Iblis (Satan)] said: “O my Lord! Because you misled me, I shall indeed adorn the path of error for them (mankind) on the earth, and I shall mislead them all. (15:39)

ثُمَّ لَآتِيَنَّهُمْ مِنْ بَيْنِ أَيْدِيهِمْ وَمِنْ خَلْفِهِمْ وَعَنْ أَيْمَانِهِمْ وَعَنْ شَمَائِلِهِمْ ۖ وَلَا تَجِدُ أَكْثَرَهُمْ شَاكِرِينَ

Then I will come to them from before them and behind them, from their right and from their left, and You will not find most of them as thankful ones (i.e. they will not be dutiful to You).” (7:17)

Misleading mankind is his primary goal till the end of time. So whenever we find ourselves giving in to temptations, we should know that it is Satan that’s trying to lead us astray. Therefore we should immediately seek refuge in Allah,

وَإِمَّا يَنْزَغَنَّكَ مِنَ الشَّيْطَانِ نَزْغٌ فَاسْتَعِذْ بِاللَّهِ ۚ إِنَّهُ سَمِيعٌ عَلِيمٌ

And if an evil whisper comes to you from Shaitan (Satan) then seek refuge with Allah. Verily, He is All-Hearer, All-Knower. (7:200)

Also, when Satan said he will mislead mankind, Allah said,

إِنَّ عِبَادِي لَيْسَ لَكَ عَلَيْهِمْ سُلْطَانٌ إِلَّا مَنِ اتَّبَعَكَ مِنَ الْغَاوِينَ

Certainly, you shall have no authority over My slaves, except those who follow you of the Ghawin (Mushrikun and those who go astray, criminals, polytheists, and evil-doers, etc.) (15:42)

This verse gives me hope and comfort, and encourages me to be righteous and strive against evil. When I’m in a spiritual mood of this kind or on a spiritual high as some would say, I get upset with myself for being careless about my religious obligations, for being unconcerned about my akhira, for not even trying to be a good Muslim. But it is in these moments of realization that I feel truly grateful for Islam, for being blessed with eeman. I feel that with just a little more effort we can become better Muslims, stay away from temptations and sinning, and earn reward. Bi ithnillah.

Oh and this the hadith I was talking about earlier,

The Messenger of Allah ( صلى الله عليه وسلم) said, “…Always keep your tongue moist with the remembrance of Allah, the Mighty and Sublime.”

(Sunan Ibn Majah 3793)

The Prophet ( صلى الله عليه وسلم ) has taught us many beautiful duas to be recited in the morning and evening, after prayer, etc. We all should make a habit to recite these duas everyday seeking Allah’s Help, placing our complete trust in Him.

Here’s one of them,

اللَّهُمَّ أَعِنِّيْ عَلَى ذِكْرِكَ وَشُكْرِكَ وَحُسْنِ عِبَادَتِكَ.

O Allah, help me remember You, to be grateful to You, and to worship You in an excellent manner.

Ameen!

Keep me in your prayers. ❤

The Original Sin – Part 1


One of the fundamental beliefs of Christianity is that sin is inherited. It is alleged that human beings are sinful by birth due to the sin committed by Adam (alayhi salaam) who ate from the tree made forbidden to him, which caused him to be expelled from Paradise. Although it’s interesting to note that within the Bible itself there are different versions of the same story and the accounts vary considerably. Nevertheless, this doctrine, known as the “Original Sin”, forms the very basis of the Christian faith as other important doctrines of the religion like incarnation, atonement and redemption are directly linked to it. If one were to reject the original sin it would lead to the rejection of the atonement and in turn Christianity itself. Because if human beings do not bear the sin of Adam in the first place then there would be no need for a sacrifice to atone for it.

Prophet Adam (as) is mentioned at various places in the Quran too. For instance, in Surah Ta-Ha verses 115-122, Allah ‘Azza Wa Jal mentions the creation of Adam, His Command to the angels to prostrate to Adam as a sign of honor and respect. The enmity of Iblis for the Children of Adam (his descendants, the entire human race) is also mentioned.

One important difference in Islam and Christianity is that Islam DOES NOT promote the Original Sin. Regarding the sin of Adam (as), the Quran tells us that he repented for his sin. Allah revealed to him words of repentance, which He then accepted from him and thus he was cleansed of the sin which he committed. 

~فَتَلَقَّى ءَادَمُ مِن رَّبِّهِ كَلِمَاتٍ فَتَابَ عَلَيْهِ إِنَّهُ هُوَ التَّوَّابُ الرَّحِيمُ ~

“Then Adam received Words (of forgiveness) from his Lord, and He accepted his repentance.  Verily, He is the One Who repeatedly accepts repentance, the Most Merciful. (Quran 2:37)

This verse tells us about two of the Divine Attributes of Allah, that of Forgiveness and Mercy.

~إِنَّهُ هُوَ التَّوَّابُ الرَّحِيمُ~

“He is the One Who repeatedly accepts repentance, the Most Merciful” Meaning Allah forgives whoever regrets his error and returns to Him in repentance. This meaning is similar to Allah’s statements,

~أَلَمْ يَعْلَمُواْ أَنَّ اللَّهَ هُوَ يَقْبَلُ التَّوْبَةَ عَنْ عِبَادِهِ~

(Know they not that Allah accepts repentance from His servants) (9:104),

~وَمَن يَعْمَلْ سُوءاً أَوْ يَظْلِمْ نَفْسَهُ~

(And whoever does evil or wrongs himself) (4:110) and

~وَمَن تَابَ وَعَمِلَ صَـلِحاً~

(And whosoever repents and does righteous good deeds) (25:71).

The Ayat mentioned above, testify to the fact that Allah forgives the sins of whoever repents, demonstrating His kindness and mercy towards His creation and servants.

[Tafsir Ibn Kathir]

Therefore unlike Christianity that considers sin to be passed down from Adam to the rest of the creation and human nature to be sinful (which, if true, would’ve been quite unfair to be honest), Islam holds Adam (as) was forgiven by Allah and that sin is not inherited. Also that every individual is born in a state of spiritual purity, free from sin known as the fitra. Every person is equally capable of both good and evil. We’ve been created with free will, so it is only natural that we may fall into sin if we let ourselves be tempted by Satan. For this very reason it is important that we strive hard to stay away from temptations and work towards attaining the Pleasure of Allah. We are not expected to be perfect but that doesn’t mean we won’t be held accountable for our deeds.

~وَلاَ تَكْسِبُ كُلُّ نَفْسٍ إِلاَّ عَلَيْهَا وَلاَ تَزِرُ وَازِرَةٌ وِزْرَ أُخْرَى~

“..And every soul earns not [blame] except against itself, and no bearer of burdens will bear the burden of another…” (Quran 6:164)

I’ll address this in more detail in another post insha’Allah.

P.S: I was initially going to write on another topic, but it turned out that it was huge and there was a lot to read on it so this is kinda like a last minute thing. I’m travelling this week, but once I’m back I’ll make it up to you guys haha. Insha’Allah.

Why Islam?


Assalamualaikum wa rahmatullaahi wa barakaatuhu everyone!

How you guys doing? The month of Dhul Hijjah starts tomorrow! I’m sure many of us know the significance of worshipping in the first ten days of this month. But for those of us who don’t and as a reminder to the rest, here’s a hadith that talks about it:

Ibn ‘Abbas (may Allah be pleased with him) reported that the Prophet (صلى الله عليه وسلم) said: “There are no days in which righteous deeds are more beloved to Allah than these ten days.” The people asked, “Not even jihad for the sake of Allah?” He said, “Not even jihad for the sake of Allah, except in the case of a man who went out to fight giving himself and his wealth up for the cause, and came back with nothing.”
(Reported by al-Bukhaari, 2/457).

You can read more on it here.

Hope we’ll all utilize this opportunity to do as many good deeds as we can that will help our eeman grow and take us closer to Allah ‘Azza wa Jal. May Allah Ta’aala accept it from us and may Allah accept the Hajj of everyone who’s gone for Hajj this year. Ameen.

Remember me in your precious duas ❤

***

Anddd here’s a li’l rap for you guys! I know that probably sounds like a pie in the sky but man no lie, if the sky’s the limit I’ma learn to fly! 😋

Haha seriously I would really appreciate it if you read it and lemme know what you think. As always any feedback is welcome.

Why Islam?

With everything that’s happenin around in the name of Islam
Its become the talk of the town, they say Muslims be haters all around the world1
Women forced to stay at home, cover up,
Stripped of their freedom unlike every other grownup!2
I mean that’s just simply messed up 3
Nah. Hold up.
Before you try to diss my religion based on your misconceptions,
Just calm down and get your facts right first
And instead of believin what the media says, do your own research!
Just to give you a heads up though, the reality
Is not always the same as what you’re shown on tv,
There’s more to Islam than hijab and polygamy,
And mind you terrorism is not one of them, homie.
‘Nuff said. But I’m not gonna stop yet.
Cause ain’t nothin more important I can think of right now
Than gettin the point across, so lemme begin with the basics,
This stuff is technical, it might get somewhat complicated
But because everything in Islam has a basis
Eventually it will all make sense, you just gotta be a lil patient.
Human beings were created for a purpose,
To worship the One and Only God who made us.
And this isn’t just any story I made up,
The same message was preached for ages by prophets and messengers.
Sent by God to this earth with Divine Signs from Him.
The religion became complete with the Qur’an revealed,
To the last Messenger, Muhammad4, who was the seal of the Prophets5
The only Scripture preserved and protected from being corrupted,
Unlike the Bible and the Torah and every other scripture that came before it!
It’s plain and simple, just think about it, how do you justify your belief that god died?!
Was tried and crucified, chose to be sacrificed?!6
We seek refuge in Allah, He’s Exalted, the Most High, He’s above all that they lie!
Ain’t no justification for ignorance, mate.
I mean no exaggeration but the only way to salvation is submission to the Creator and not His creation!

***

Footnotes:

1. This is referring to Islamophobia. Some people just can’t help themselves from attributing the crimes done by people who are Muslim or call themselves Muslim to Islam. But when a Christian does the same they never blame it on Christianity. Why such double standards?

2. Sorry for the awkward example but I had to mention it cause some people think covering up somehow oppresses women which is NOT TRUE. I mean, nothing can be further from the truth! Hijab is nothing but empowering!

3. Sarcasm. XD

4. SallaAllahu alayhi wa sallam

5. “Muhammad (SAW) is not the father of any man among you, but he is the Messenger of Allah and the last (end) of the Prophets. And Allah is Ever AllAware of everything.” Surah Al-Ahzab 33:40

6. The Christian belief that Prophet Jesus (عليه السلام) supposedly the son of god who was also god  sacrificed himself to free mankind from the burden of sin which doesn’t make any sense whatsoever for many reasons. Read Ten Reasons Why Jesus isn’t God, for the proof and to get a better understanding of the topic.

No More Self-Doubt


I’m sitting on this bench,
Watching people passing by,
Go about their daily lives,
Chasing dreams across the skies.
Funny that it reminds me of when I was little,
And used to chase butterflies ,
Believing I could catch them if I tried.

God, how quickly time flew by
I didn’t even realize…
And now I sit here wondering
Just what I’m doing with my life.
My mind’s filled with
Thoughts as empty as
The space I’ve been staring at.
I got opportunities in front of me
Yet I keep looking back,
Should I go for it?
What if I fall?
What if I make the same mistakes again?

At the end of the day,
I know I can’t be perfect anyway.
Cause nobody is and can never be
All I want right now is to be me
A little trust in myself
A little courage
That’s all I need.
And everything’s going to be okay.

No matter what choice you make
Those who truly love you
Will have only good things to say
You might hear bitter words from some though
But that’s because they don’t care.
You don’t have to please everyone you meet
So do what makes you happy
Go to places where you want to be
Life’s too short to doubt yourself
Or pretend to be someone else
I keep telling this to myself every day,
Don’t be afraid if you feel lost today,
It’s okay to not be okay.
You’ll find your way someday.

***

Assalamualaikum,

This was just something I wrote to myself some time ago. One of those times when you really need to give yourself time to sort out your feelings and understand yourself…guess that explains the lack of a rhyme scheme, the uneven metres and disconnected thoughts haha 😁…I think the message of the poem is pretty simple though, that nobody is perfect and there is room for improvement for all of us.

Remember me in your duas.

Fi Amanillah ❤

images

 

 

The Puny Human Mind


Assalamualaikum! Hope you guys are doing good!

So like I promised this post is on Comparative Religion, but before I start I’d like to add a disclaimer that I’m not an expert on this topic and whatever I say is just from the lil research I managed to do (I’ve tried to give references wherever possible). So if you think something I say is wrong feel free to correct me.

This is about a discussion I once had with a Christian friend on the trinity. We already know that the trinity is the central belief of Christianity and every Christian (with the exception of a few denominations) believes in it. I agree I haven’t read much on this topic but I’ve had quite a few discussions on it with people over the past few years but none have been able to explain it so far, every person has their own version of what it is.

As a side note, I think while doing dawah it is extremely important to be careful of what we say and the methods we apply because often times our intentions are good but the way we go about calling people to Islam is incorrect which sometimes results in pushing them further away from Islam. So we should avoid going to extremes. Our duty is to only present the message of Islam to them and not try to prove a point or win an argument. I learned it the hard way but hey, we learn from our mistakes, right?

So anyway I was talking to my friend and something she said at some point in the discussion really stood out to me. She said,

“How can the puny human mind fully comprehend God?”

It made sense tbh. How can we comprehend God Almighty, The Creator of the entire universe, of everything that exists in the world, of which we’re merely a tiny little part?

But regardless, that certainly should not be used as an excuse to not know God Almighty. Because if we don’t know God and what He commands us to do and the ways in which we should worship Him then how are we gonna worship Him correctly?

Allah Ta’aala Says in the Qur’an,
《 وَلَا يُحِيطُونَ بِشَيْءٍ مِنْ عِلْمِهِ إِلَّا بِمَا شَاءَ》
“And they will never compass anything of His Knowledge except that which He wills.” (Surah Al-Baqarah 2:255)

Scholars have said that “This part of the Ayah indicates that no one ever acquires knowledge of Allah and His Attributes, except what He conveys to them.” (Tafsir Ibn Kathir)

“Neither can imagination conceive of Him nor can understanding fathom Him.” (Aqeedatut Tahawiyyah, p41)

So it’s true, like my friend said, that we cannot fully comprehend God. We can never truly understand the true extent of Allah’s Might and Power and His Divine Nature. Simply because it is way beyond the reach of our minds. Even the Prophet ( صلى الله عليه وسلم ) warned us against dwelling on thoughts that we cannot grasp.

Abu Hurayrah (رضي الله عنه) related that Allaah’s Messenger (صلى الله عليه وسلم) said, “Satan will come to everyone of you and ask: Who created this and that?—until he questions: Who created your Lord? When he comes to that, one should seek refuge in Allaah [say: I affirm my faith in Allaah and His prophets] and avoid [such thoughts].”

Key phrase: “avoid such thoughts”

The human mind is limited and it is impossible for it to understand the Creator who is eternal and infinite and cannot be understood in terms of material existence. Therefore intentionally delving into matters of the unseen, trying to unveil mysteries of the Divine, and believing we are somehow miraculously capable of it is what the Prophet ( صلى الله عليه وسلم) warned us against. But this does not in any way mean that there is zero possibility of knowing God because Allah سبحانه و تعالى Himself revealed to man some of His Attributes through the Qur’an so that we may worship Him correctly and not associate any partners with Him.

《 وَمَا يُؤْمِنُ أَكْثَرُهُمْ بِاللَّهِ إِلَّا وَهُمْ مُشْرِكُونَ》
“And most of them believe not in Allah except that they attribute partners unto Him [i.e. they are Mushrikun -polytheists]”
(Surah Ta-Ha 12:106)

Not understanding God could result in confusing His Attributes with those of creation which might thereby lead to deification of creation. An example is Christianity.

The Qur’an states,

《لَيْسَ كَمِثْلِهِ شَيْء》
“…there is nothing like unto Him…
( Surah Ash-Shura 42:11)

There are many such verses in the Qur’an that give us an idea of the Divine Attributes of Allah. It is essential for our faith that we affirm and understand these Attributes as they are and not give them additional meanings.

So yeah I guess that’s about it. Hope you liked reading this. I’d love to hear your thoughts on this topic and as always your comments and any feedback will be appreciated. 😊

May Allah سبحانه و تعالى keep us steadfast on His Deen. Ameen.

Remember me in your duas! Fi Amanillah  ❤

Ashamed 


There’s no shame in buying your favorite brands;
Be it a dress from Guess, a pair of jeans from Forever 21 or somewhere else
Even if there’s no sale who cares, right? I can totally understand
Cause you may not be a princess but you deserve to look your best.
It’s ok to get all dolled up like Barbie for an all girls party
Just make sure there are no guys around, honey.
Cause if you really love your body
You wouldn’t put it on show for just anybody.
Truth be told, to the world you’re just an object, an eye candy
Girl, I’m sorry but don’t you see
The double standards of society?
That measures your beauty by the size of your booty
Not your qualifications or your personality.
I don’t want to sound radical, but let’s be practical
When was the last time you were complimented for your skills
Not just your curves, your eyes, size or your skin
You might think I’m making a mountain out of a molehill,
I mean who doesn’t like being called beautiful, but still
The truth is the battle we girls be playin with ourselves
Ain’t going nowhere but downhill.
Where’s our self-worth, our self-respect,
Are we cool with being reduced to mere objects?
We don’t have to conform to any messed up standards,
Dressing up how the world wants us to dress up.
Like who are we trying to impress?
I mean, what’s the point of all those
Visits to the parlor, clean up, bleach, makeup
Fake tan, highlights and what not.
Oh and did I mention the extra hours we spend working out,
Just to stay in shape,
So that guys look at us and say…well, they shouldn’t be saying anything in the first place!
I mean weren’t we commanded to lower our gaze?

Which reminds me of something important
Brothers you think you’re tough and smart and brave and strong
Well, I ain’t saying you’re wrong.
But let me ask you something, is it so difficult to lower your gaze?
Where’s your sense of shame?
You can’t help yourself from staring at girls,
I mean no offence, I’m just telling it like it is
“Oh it’s just the first glance,” you say, but lemme guess
Isn’t she the girl from your class that you see literally every single day?
But anyway, keep at it, I mean who knows?
Maybe someday you’ll finally be able to make her your bae.
Or maybe not, cause contrary to what you believe
She’s probably way out of your league.
But whatever it is, you do realize you cannot avoid blame
Once you fall prey to Satan and his tricky games
This might sound strange, but whether it’s your cousin or your classmate,
They’re all the same, non-mahram, the rules don’t change.
So let me ask you again, where is your sense of shame?

But make no mistake, the command to lower the gaze
Applies to women as much as it applies to men
Cause we’re equally at the risk of being tempted by Satan
Like we’re reminded in the Qur’an time and again.
Whatever happened to obedience.
There is a lot to say but I rest my case
Cause it’s such a disgrace, what a sorry state of affairs
To forget that we’re merely slaves.
Of the One Above, and if it wasn’t for His Grace
Imagine what would’ve happened to the human race.

“And if Allah were to impose blame on the people for what they have earned, He would not leave upon the earth any creature. But He defers them for a specified term. And when their time comes, then indeed Allah has ever been, of His servants, Seeing.”

(Surah Fatir 35:45)

——

Assalamualaikum wa rahmatullaahi wa barakaatuhu everyone!

I’ve missed this place so much! But I’m really glad to be back Alhumdulillah 😊

Although it feels so awkward talking to ya’ll after such a long break. You know like the awkward moment when you meet a friend after a very long time and you’re both just awkwardly staring at each other’s faces wondering how to keep the conversation going and asking about the weather doesn’t help reduce the awkwardness a bit.

That’s exactly how I’m feeling right now. Like what should I say next. But anyway, screw it. I’ve got something interesting coming up for ya’ll Insha’Allah.

A post on Comparative Religion! (Ok I know some of you think stuff like comparative religion is theory-ish and boring but I like doing research. And there was a time I was really into it so yeah I might want to share some of my experiences with you all insha’Allah)

Ohh and let me know what you think about the poem! 😊

And if possible do remember me in your duas! ❤

Heedless


Darkness covers every inch of my being
Emptiness fills every space in my mind
The void in my heart deepens
As I drift down the corridors of my past
That link it to my present.
I’m in a sudden silence, yet all too familiar 
Begging a thousand questions
Painful, brutally painful questions
I try to resist with confidence
The questions that keep ringing in my conscience.

Why? They ask me why
Why does the darkness and emptiness bother you?

But every time I hear those words
I feel a storm brewing inside of me
And it’s not silent anymore
I hear the desperate cries
The reproaching words, the warnings
Of my pleading soul
Screaming cusses, going ballistic
It’s just crazy in there
And I’m almost to tears
Wishing I never hear those words again

Only I know I will
It’s just a matter of time
I can sense the calm before the storm
As I try to play it cool
Act as if everything is okay.
And walk away
Heedless.

***

Can I just pretend that I’m not posting after yet another unreasonably long period of silence? 😜

Back to the Beginning


Assalamualaikum!

Hey everybody! How are you guys doing? I know it’s been ages since my last post. Maybe I owe you an apology? No, I don’t? That’s great. Let’s continue from where we left. Shall we?

No?

Oh, right. I owe ya’ll an explanation.

Right so…yeah I really really wanted to post something in the past couple of weeks but there was, still is, stuff keeping me busy. There’s been a lot on my mind lately so it’s not like I’ve stopped writing. I write almost everyday. I’ve written quite a few poems too, some of which I might share with y’all insha’Allah. Maybe I’ll write a few lines of explanation before posting them on my blog though so you guys can at least understand haha. Or maybe I won’t. 😛 Depends on a lot of things actually, like mood, time, mood, work, mood and umm…well yea mood. Actually I do a lot of things depending on my mood well because…

Ahh never mind TMI, you get the point.

Also the other reason I haven’t posted anything of late is because I just didn’t feel like it  (See? I told you so) Let me explain, when I first started this blog it was mainly focused on addressing pretty basic stuff that we, as Muslims, face on a daily basis.

You don’t want to know? Come on, history is always fun. Besides when someone’s talking you should let them talk. So now be a good listener and just listen ok? Haha. You asked for it. 😈

So what I was saying. It was simple and to the point. The purpose it served? Well I don’t know how many people benefitted from it, but one thing I know for sure is that I did benefit from it. It helped me keep a check on my actions because I knew that it would be hypocritical to preach something I didn’t practise myself. It was a reminder to myself first and I made sure that I at least tried to put it into practice. It was always there at the back of my head, in my conscience.

Now the thing is, over the past few months I observed that I was writing less and less of meaningful stuff which was getting a little frustrating. And worse my writing was not benefitting me in any way, like spiritually, you know. Of course I did put thought into it, and I enjoyed doing it but I felt there was something missing, something essential.

Maybe motivation was missing? I do have a handful of people following my blog though, I get decent stats Alhumdulillah, shares and search engines too. That’s enough to keep a writer motivated, right? But honestly I don’t even care about stats. The purpose of this blog is da’wah, it’s a long term goal insha’Allah if you know what I mean. So it doesn’t matter if I see a visible increase in my stats or not. That’s not what was bringing me down, or the reason for my lack of activity.

Will you stop beating around the bush and just get to the point?

What bush? I don’t see any bushes here. (lame joke, I know) 😄

Haha okaaay so what I’m trying to say is that I want to write something, just anything that will BENEFIT me and whoever reads my blog. The plan is to go back to writing long detailed posts with references from the Qur’an and hadiths. Soo I’m thinking of being a bit more systematic and focused. So here’s what I’ll do insha’Allah:

~ discuss topics related to Aqeedah (cause that’s the root, even linguistically, ‘aqd is Arabic word for root, we must know what the right Aqeedah is)
~ Comparative religion (I like discussing similarities and dissimilarities between Islam and other religions)
~ lessons from the Seerah of the Prophet صلى الله عليه وسلم and stories of Sahabah رضي الله عنهم
~ I’d like to include a li’l bit of fiqh and hadith too
~ And of course Tafseer
~ I might post poetry once in a while insha’Allah

I really hope this works. Kindly make dua.

P.S: Did you notice the title? If you didn’t, I named this post “Back to the Beginning”. Because I believe we should never let anything bring us down, before we even think of ending our journey when we can’t see the road ahead, we should know that there is nothing wrong in starting over and no matter what there will always be a way out. In EVERY little thing in life. We should never ever give up because there’s always hope,  and being Muslim  we must have full faith in Allah عَزَّ و جل Who is capable of ALL things.

May Allah عَزَّ و جل grant us the correct understanding of our Deen and bless us with the ability to worship Him in ways which are most beloved to Him. Ameen.

Remember me in your duas. 💖